Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Living with man-eater.

How much do you trust your friends?
Trust them, that they will not betray you?
Trust that they will side you?
Trust that they will not take away what is rightfully yours?
Most importantly, trust that they will not meddle with your love life?

I used to believe so.
Used to be that naive.
To think that this world is filled with blissful angels.
But, then again...
I look back into life...
I see the cruel facts...
Fatcs about my friends...

Do they really care about me?
Do they really mean what they say?
Do they really do it, because of me, and not for their own advantage?

Song once told me.....
"No matter how much you trust someone, just make sure you keep secrets of yours to yourself. And only yourself. This is to protect yourself. Take my advice."

I thought he was in a post breakup mental state, that's what made him merepek so much.
But, now I thank him for his advcie. It's a good piece of I finally manage to comprehend the turth....

The truth that I'm living among

Girls...they can be pleasant, can be just anything....not involving guys.
But when it's a case of you, your friend and a guy, trust me, even the bestest of friend, just might get into gruesome catfights.

I thought I was being trying to heal my friend's broken heart. (she got dump).
I did everything I could to cheer her up. Asked her out for all-girls outings...put on the best makeup for her, choosed the nicest clothes for her....I was sincered in what I was doing.
I honestly wanted to just help.

But life took a cruel turn for me. Not only did she stand up again, with more self-esteem....and confidence, she took away the guy I once like. All attention was shifted to her. All my guy friends took notice of her.
She flirted with the guy I like, without the least consideration of how I would feel. (was I surprised? Not really....somehow...I could sense it coming)
And when she's at the winning point, she tried acting blissful, arranging a badminton session for me to play with a macho guy, whom she likes! (Not I like pun)
Using me as a bait (I wasn't aware), she got the attention of that guy too.
(Am I jealous of it? Nope. I really have no interest in that guy)

Now, I look back, and ask myself, why?
Why must it be...that I need to learn to distrust others?
Why can't friends learn to not mess with others' life?

If she's the only living being that tore me up unsrupulously,I won't be much bothered.
But, to my utter disappointment, I have started to unmasked one by one, faces of selfish, self-centred people living behind hidden mask of innocent looking, lovely people.

Am I that angelic? NO!
Then what rights do i have to complain?
-I really, really,really, did everything for my friends out of sincerity. It's just that I never expected myself to be paying such a high price for it.

Do I regret what I'v done?
-at times...yes....but mostly, I prefer to think positively (hope it helps)

So, to my dear readers out there, listen to Song's certainly would bring more benefit than harm to you.

Friday, December 26, 2008


Unfortunately, this is not me. This is my "ji mui"-Hun Sze.....

Yeap, I know, to some people who know her well, you must be in shock to see her in smoking hot make up!
I will tell you readers about our shopping spree the other day.
I just got back from Hong Kong when she messaged me,asking me whether I would like to join her for a make up session in Shu Uemura. (of course I wouldn't give up anything for a session like this), she fetched me and off we went to 1u.
Lady there: What type of make up do you want to learn?
Hun Sze: Huh?
Lady: Oh, got day make up, and night.
Hun Sze look at me....
Lady: I'll teach you day, ok?
Hun Sze: Ok you guys think THAT is day make up?????!!!!!!!!!! We were giggling about her being able to go clubbing after that. It's so freaking heavy! Especially the eyes! (But can't deny the fact, it does look nice)
Hun Sze will be off to UK soon, and she needs to get herself a set of make up stuff. I was, of course, her chaperone for the day. We concluded that it'll cost a bomb to splurge on Shu stuff...maybe we should just try scouting for cheaper ones.

We went around, and ended with highlighter from Face Shop, silver eyeliner from Body shop, Mascara from Kate, eyebrow pencil from Empro,eyeshadow from Kate. And the rest from Shu Uemura.

It was a great haul. And I hope to be blogging more about my current obsessions with make up again. (Old habit die hard)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


Wow...I miss blogging! Been silent for way too long.
After my much anticipated external exam was over, I went out shopping, and indulged myself in lotsa good food. I have deprieved my stomach of proper food for the entire exam period!

So, what have I been up to lately?
I just came back from my holiday trip to Hong Kong and Shen Zhen. It was like in a shopping haven! Certain things are really way way cheaper than in Malaysia. But, of cause, it is a known fact that Hong Kong's cost of living is so high, I was practically thinking of the word "Insane" everytime the tourist guide talk about how much they gotta pay for food, cars, flats. To me, it looks more like, the rich gets richer, and the poor gets poorer.
But, I can't deny, I love it there! Though the food doesn't suit me at all!!!! (EEee....tastless...oily...or tooooo salty!)

The weather there was perfect. Occasional cold wind, with sun. (Not hot and scorching sun!)
So, we had to carry our jackets along, and wear boots to protect our legs. At the same time, we had to bring umbrella to shade against the sun.
I visited, many places, and of cause, one of the well-known place is Disneyland. It's kinda small....but it's already a big success there. I tried the Space Mountain. This is a roller coaster ride, that brings us into total darkness. It tricks us, by letting us get engross to the environment of make believe stars in the darkness. And, when we least expected it, the roller coaster started to take off at full speed...blasting through the darkness. All the while, I was yelling to my sis..."It's going down!!! It's going down!!!"....(but it never went down...) =.='''

There are many more exciting things that went on durning my trip...but I think if I'm going to write out everything, it'll bored readers to death.


So, I'd rather blog on my latest plan for Chinese New Year, and Chritmas.
Oh well, today, is Christmas. And I am blogging away in, you can imagine, just how pathetic is my Christmas celebration. But i am not at all bothered. I don't exactly celebrate christmas anyway.

I have been counting on my savings...and making plans for Chinese New Year instead.
I am quite done with my clothes. Currently,I have just ordered a BB cream from the internet. I can't wait for it to arrive. Wanna use it during CNY. I don't want to be slapping on thick foundation on my face for CNY, it's not appropriate, esp when I'm back in Perlis, I'll make myself look totally out of place! So, BB cream, shall do the perfect trick.

So, now....running through my head..I have a whole list of stuff that I need to get ready for CNY....and basically, I'm on my way to getting everything done! I'm so pleased with myself....this year, i did not really splurge much on wasted stuff that I may not use after CNY, and I have learnt to purchase cheaper for value for money goods....and look out for sales!
(this is what happen when cross a shopoholic and an accountant together)

I guess this should be all. Will update again....hopefully, it'll be soon...