Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Not so good

Today I'm drifting in and out of my thoughts again.

Flashbacks are not always good.

I hate falling back to the same point.

I really wonder, will I be truly happy one day.

Nothing is certain.

It hurts to live this way.

I am always told, only I can help myself, but how.

Have I not done enough yet.

Faith is the only thing left to hold on.

I feel pathetic bout myself.


Q said...

It can be difficult to have fluctuated thoughts. But it is natural for us laymen to have fluctuations in our mind. Who in this world can still the fluctuations in the mind (meditate without any mind thoughts)? It’s not easy to achieve even through lifetime of training. So for a start, let your thoughts come and go.

Some friends who you know have offered their help. Have you contacted them for a chat or yum cha? Take on some activities/interests. For e.g., photography. Go to some classes such as cookery, badminton, yoga, dance, etc … whatever your interest.

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

Lastly, 沒有放不下的東西、只有不肯放手的自己。

From agony uncle :)

Erny said...

Uncle Agony: I like how you always incorporate mandarin at the end of your comments....and, yeah, that's a very wise saying I'll constantly keep in mind. Thanks.