Monday, August 10, 2009

How bad can it be?

For each time that I thought, "this is the worst"....little do I know...the worst has yet to come.
I don't know whether I should be proud of myself...that I have proven it well that I can really withstand anything in life now. However painful, however miserable it makes me feel, I can stil pull through my days. Though, I am wondering whether the constant headaches I'm suffering are due to me having to learn to accept things. Accept what life is, accept how my life will never be the same as others. Accept the consequences of my own doings.

"The things that don't kill you, make you stronger."
Yes, what an inspiring saying..but I can't help it but to wonder...what if it kills you in the process? How will you live to be stronger then?

I hate my days. Every night I wonder..I thought every human has equal chances of being happy, and sad. Why are my days always full of rain. And no matter how hard I hope, and pray, and make sure I do my part well, I still can't see any sign of rainbow.
If I'm destined to live like now...for the rest of my life....I'd rather choose to die young.


danielchowtzeyoong said...

apa jadi o?

Li said...

I don't think you really understand the meaning of'love'. Love is not only being spelled out in a BG relationship, but everything else in life needs love. You have tonnes of love from your family, your friends. Why not share your feelings with them and not wasting it on someone who doesn't appreciate your love at all?

You want love from someone, FIRST YOU GOTTA LOVE YOURSELF. Learn how to love yourself. You know you don't have to face the miserable days if you don't want to. Let yourself free and learn how to accept things in life. What's never yours WILL NEVER be yours.

Fuck the phrase, "Love is blind". Come on, we're living in an era where other things are much more important than being in love, what's more being in love with someone who's not appreciative. You deserve so much more than all these.

You're not destined to live your life like this. You have the chance to make changes SO DO IT. No one in this world has the right to cause you so much pain and misery and endless crying-over-the-phone conversation. You know what I mean. So love yourself and live your life with pride.

danielchowtzeyoong said...

well said...but until ur in it...u wil not know how it feels lik :)