How do you learn how to be happy and grateful for the things that happen out of your expectation?
How do you learn not to be upset, and anger bout things that don't happen when you expected them to happen?
How do you learn to focus on the positive side of life, rather than to magnify all the negative aspects of it?
I always pride myself as an easily contented girl. But truth be told, I am not. I don't even know where to derive my happiness from. How to live a fruitfull life. Or to even acknowledge the fact that I have almost a near perfect life compared to many other people in poorer countries, or to those disabled people we often bump along the way. I know very well that it is already a blessing to be able to wake up everyday and find myself breathing. Being alive itself, is a reason to put a smile on the face and march through life.
But why is it, in the end? I am still not happy.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Looking Good Is Vital??
I was having this conversation on how to spend your pay, when my friend told me he puts aside RM200 per month specially to buy clothes. Shock, I asked him, how many ways can a guy dress to impress? It is ridiculous for a guy to be spending rm200 every month on new clothes. As he explained on, he said it is to buy himself a new suit of working attire every month.
Finding that statement even more ridiculous because male working attire is so simple, no one will notice it if a guy has been changing his formal blouse or his pants.
My dad has a closet filled from left to right with all light colours shirt, and many different shades of brown, black and grey pants. But throughout my life of observing him preparing to work, I hardly ever see the difference even with him diligently pairing his matching shirt and pants.
However, one thing this guy commented seems to strike in me hard and sound.
" I makesure I dress well. I need to look good to give myself the extra boost of confidence."
This is one point I have noted, thought over it. And realised, my lack of confidence, could be stamped from the very basic of, I don't yearn to look good. No, I do want to look good. But wanting to look good, and actually trying to look good, is two totally different issue.
Being so petite, and standing only at 150cm tall, my bestfriend (170cm) has always been telling me, "you need the extra height. you have all the reason to be wearing heels. why don't you wear heels?"
I guess, I do desire very much to be able to look stunning, or at least professional enough when I go work, but because having this embedded belief that short people is bornt out to fail in looking good, I basically rarely go the extra mild to ensure I am well dress enough to gain respect from people. Or rather, appropriately for occasion.
I remembered doing my internship for this well established firm two years ago. I always look around and asked myself, why do everyone look so professional in their formal clothes while I could be easily identified by clients as a trainee. But my question just stopped there, without going further to the core of the problem. Now, looking back, I could see the whole lot what differences in my dressing with the people there. I wore skirts which are way too long and oversized for me, and I didn't even bother alterting them. I wore short sleeves shirt daily, while people were all clad in long sleeves shirt. And the worse part is, I didn't even know that working clothes should be tuck in, let alone to even iron them. I wore shoes that were fit for my mum.
Now i totally understand why did my senior said this to me:
she:" You rememeber the very good looking guy I showed you in the picture?"
me: " yes? why?"
she:" he has a girlfriend already. and I can't believe it. he is so good looking, why did he chose such a plain looking girl. she is not ugly. but not pretty either."
me:" like how plain?"
she: " like YOU!"
No, she wasn't joking when she said that. Ah, yes, at that point, it did make me wonder, does it mean, someone that look like me don't deserve good looking guys? Hmm...something for me to ponder....
This 1st September, I am going to start working. I have set my mind firm on one thing. No matter what happen, I must makesure, I too set aside some money to invest in my working attire just like my friend above. I want to look good. I want to go the extra mild to look professional. I want to give people a positive first impression. I want to build some confidence in myself.
I. Will. Succeed.
Confidence is an ongoing issue in my life. Sometimes, I just hope I am borned few inches taller, and I won't be suffering that much now. And I thought confidence is of internal factor, but mine, is very much affected by my height issue. When I was a teenager, dad even told me he pitied me, and asked me whether I'll like to go for surgery in China to "pull" my bone??
Maybe, I'll start wearing more heels. Maybe, I'll start reading up more on fashion for petite. Maybe..., all I have to do, is just learn to embrace being petite.
Finding that statement even more ridiculous because male working attire is so simple, no one will notice it if a guy has been changing his formal blouse or his pants.
My dad has a closet filled from left to right with all light colours shirt, and many different shades of brown, black and grey pants. But throughout my life of observing him preparing to work, I hardly ever see the difference even with him diligently pairing his matching shirt and pants.
However, one thing this guy commented seems to strike in me hard and sound.
" I makesure I dress well. I need to look good to give myself the extra boost of confidence."
This is one point I have noted, thought over it. And realised, my lack of confidence, could be stamped from the very basic of, I don't yearn to look good. No, I do want to look good. But wanting to look good, and actually trying to look good, is two totally different issue.
Being so petite, and standing only at 150cm tall, my bestfriend (170cm) has always been telling me, "you need the extra height. you have all the reason to be wearing heels. why don't you wear heels?"
I guess, I do desire very much to be able to look stunning, or at least professional enough when I go work, but because having this embedded belief that short people is bornt out to fail in looking good, I basically rarely go the extra mild to ensure I am well dress enough to gain respect from people. Or rather, appropriately for occasion.
I remembered doing my internship for this well established firm two years ago. I always look around and asked myself, why do everyone look so professional in their formal clothes while I could be easily identified by clients as a trainee. But my question just stopped there, without going further to the core of the problem. Now, looking back, I could see the whole lot what differences in my dressing with the people there. I wore skirts which are way too long and oversized for me, and I didn't even bother alterting them. I wore short sleeves shirt daily, while people were all clad in long sleeves shirt. And the worse part is, I didn't even know that working clothes should be tuck in, let alone to even iron them. I wore shoes that were fit for my mum.
Now i totally understand why did my senior said this to me:
she:" You rememeber the very good looking guy I showed you in the picture?"
me: " yes? why?"
she:" he has a girlfriend already. and I can't believe it. he is so good looking, why did he chose such a plain looking girl. she is not ugly. but not pretty either."
me:" like how plain?"
she: " like YOU!"
No, she wasn't joking when she said that. Ah, yes, at that point, it did make me wonder, does it mean, someone that look like me don't deserve good looking guys? Hmm...something for me to ponder....
This 1st September, I am going to start working. I have set my mind firm on one thing. No matter what happen, I must makesure, I too set aside some money to invest in my working attire just like my friend above. I want to look good. I want to go the extra mild to look professional. I want to give people a positive first impression. I want to build some confidence in myself.
I. Will. Succeed.
Confidence is an ongoing issue in my life. Sometimes, I just hope I am borned few inches taller, and I won't be suffering that much now. And I thought confidence is of internal factor, but mine, is very much affected by my height issue. When I was a teenager, dad even told me he pitied me, and asked me whether I'll like to go for surgery in China to "pull" my bone??
Maybe, I'll start wearing more heels. Maybe, I'll start reading up more on fashion for petite. Maybe..., all I have to do, is just learn to embrace being petite.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Fenling the perfect dupe for expensive brushes
You know you can never achieve great looking makeup without the proper tools?
I am a brush whore.
I buy, and buy, and buy.
When I was in UK, I either kept ordering makeup brushes from ebay, or I'll be randomly buying brushes off department stores. Boyfie actually asked me whether I was going to use them to brush my backside.
I splurge a lot on brushes as I believe the tools are just equally important as what you apply on your face.
However, my journey of collecting expensive makeup brushes ended after I return home, because in Malaysia, you can find the perfect dupe for Ecotool brushes (my holy grail brush). I have Ecotool powder brush, blush brush, travelling size kits, and the retractable kabuki brush. They cost me a lot, for someone who is still studying.
Let me unveil the perfect dupe for Ecotool brush, at a fraction of its price.
Ta-dah!!! Fenling.
Price at only RM20 for the huge, kabuki brush, and RM18 for the short handle blush brush.
I'm totally amazed by its comparable quality. Very soft and non scratchy. I really regretted being such an obsessed freak in my quest for buying Ecotools and Everyday Mineral brushes, because I could have saved a lot if only I've had stumbled upon Fenling brushes earlier.
These brushes can be purchased at Paradise Boutique along with other attractive accessories.
Go check it out people, if you haven't got any brushes yet. These are good investment.
I am a brush whore.
I buy, and buy, and buy.
When I was in UK, I either kept ordering makeup brushes from ebay, or I'll be randomly buying brushes off department stores. Boyfie actually asked me whether I was going to use them to brush my backside.
I splurge a lot on brushes as I believe the tools are just equally important as what you apply on your face.
However, my journey of collecting expensive makeup brushes ended after I return home, because in Malaysia, you can find the perfect dupe for Ecotool brushes (my holy grail brush). I have Ecotool powder brush, blush brush, travelling size kits, and the retractable kabuki brush. They cost me a lot, for someone who is still studying.
Let me unveil the perfect dupe for Ecotool brush, at a fraction of its price.
Ta-dah!!! Fenling.
Price at only RM20 for the huge, kabuki brush, and RM18 for the short handle blush brush.
I'm totally amazed by its comparable quality. Very soft and non scratchy. I really regretted being such an obsessed freak in my quest for buying Ecotools and Everyday Mineral brushes, because I could have saved a lot if only I've had stumbled upon Fenling brushes earlier.
These brushes can be purchased at Paradise Boutique along with other attractive accessories.
Go check it out people, if you haven't got any brushes yet. These are good investment.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Coach Bag and Wallet for sales?
When you're desperate for cash, this is what you do.
Sell whatever that is of value.
New Coach bag and wallet.
Bought when I was in UK from UK Ebay.
I have NEVER used them before. Brand new!
My price: Bag at rm590, wallet at rm400
Take both at rm1000 *special*
Sell whatever that is of value.
New Coach bag and wallet.
Bought when I was in UK from UK Ebay.
I have NEVER used them before. Brand new!
My price: Bag at rm590, wallet at rm400
Take both at rm1000 *special*
Monday, August 2, 2010
Budak kampung
I am bored to death.
My dearest boyfie will be heading back to UK tomorrow. And my dearest bestfriend has left Malaysia for Singapore few days ago. I'm left here all alone.
This explains it all for my stupid random pictures that speak it all on how damn rusty and bored and mad I've currently been.
*oh ya, that Chipmunk is my make-believe boyfie, whenever I'm chatting with boyfie, and I get upset, I'll punch this poor thing in front of him.*
My dearest boyfie will be heading back to UK tomorrow. And my dearest bestfriend has left Malaysia for Singapore few days ago. I'm left here all alone.
This explains it all for my stupid random pictures that speak it all on how damn rusty and bored and mad I've currently been.
*oh ya, that Chipmunk is my make-believe boyfie, whenever I'm chatting with boyfie, and I get upset, I'll punch this poor thing in front of him.*
Thursday, July 29, 2010
My sunscreen reviews
I used to be called Puteri Lilin back then during secondary school. I hated the sun. I still hate the sun. And I bloody know well that I'll continue hating the sun for as long as I live.
Hence for my obsession with sunscreens. Any recommendation on Holy Grail sunscreen, and I won't hesitate to try it out.
For the records, I have started of with Clinique sunblock spf25, it did pretty well on me, though it made my face oily and greasy like nobody's business, I didn't know there are drier sunblock on the market at that time, and I diligently finish using it. Next sunblock was Biotherm makeup base + sunblock which cost me rm139, and it broke me out and caused my face to be so oily, I seriously think they should reconsider recommending it as a makeup base. I then settled with Dermalogica tinted sunblock. I was using it until I went to UK, and my friend recommended me the Dermalogica solar defence booster. From then on, I have been on my search for THE perfect sunscreen, and have yet to come by any.
In my current stash:
Za True White day protector, Dermalogica solar defence booster, and Liz Earle mineral sun cream.
Here are the swatches:
I actually prefer the finishes of Za True White day protector, very matte, and dry, and it actually makes my complexion looks brighter and smooth. However on the downside, I broke out from it. Not that bad, but I didn't want to take any chances of worsening it, therefore I stopped using it after 10days. Now, I'm applying it on my hands instead.
I hate Dermalogica solar defence booster out of the 3. I don't know why. I look horrible with it on. My face looks so greasy and oily, and feels very yucky as well. Don't be fooled by the light texture, it gives a horrendous result at the end of the day. Good thing, it didn't break me out at all.
I am currently using my Liz Earle mineral sun cream.. it is slightly too thick for my liking, because the texture is creamy. However, since it does not break me out, and I don't look that bad with it on, thus, I have no choice but to use it. Though I brush on powder everyday before I step out of the house with this sunscreen, as it does make me look a tad oily too.
I hope my brief review here will help readers decide on their next sunscreen purchase.
I'm eyeing the shiseido face and body spf55 sunscree. haha...buying that when I get my first ever salary!
Hence for my obsession with sunscreens. Any recommendation on Holy Grail sunscreen, and I won't hesitate to try it out.
For the records, I have started of with Clinique sunblock spf25, it did pretty well on me, though it made my face oily and greasy like nobody's business, I didn't know there are drier sunblock on the market at that time, and I diligently finish using it. Next sunblock was Biotherm makeup base + sunblock which cost me rm139, and it broke me out and caused my face to be so oily, I seriously think they should reconsider recommending it as a makeup base. I then settled with Dermalogica tinted sunblock. I was using it until I went to UK, and my friend recommended me the Dermalogica solar defence booster. From then on, I have been on my search for THE perfect sunscreen, and have yet to come by any.
In my current stash:
Za True White day protector, Dermalogica solar defence booster, and Liz Earle mineral sun cream.Here are the swatches:
I actually prefer the finishes of Za True White day protector, very matte, and dry, and it actually makes my complexion looks brighter and smooth. However on the downside, I broke out from it. Not that bad, but I didn't want to take any chances of worsening it, therefore I stopped using it after 10days. Now, I'm applying it on my hands instead.
I hate Dermalogica solar defence booster out of the 3. I don't know why. I look horrible with it on. My face looks so greasy and oily, and feels very yucky as well. Don't be fooled by the light texture, it gives a horrendous result at the end of the day. Good thing, it didn't break me out at all.
I am currently using my Liz Earle mineral sun cream.. it is slightly too thick for my liking, because the texture is creamy. However, since it does not break me out, and I don't look that bad with it on, thus, I have no choice but to use it. Though I brush on powder everyday before I step out of the house with this sunscreen, as it does make me look a tad oily too.
I hope my brief review here will help readers decide on their next sunscreen purchase.
I'm eyeing the shiseido face and body spf55 sunscree. haha...buying that when I get my first ever salary!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Money Money Money...
Lol, and few weeks ago, I was asking friends, why wasn't anyone calling me for interview...and now I am here, happy with job offers, and calls for interviews. Haha...but I've very much settled for THE firm, since I've gone through with the medical checkup. Yes. Medical checkup that required my blood to be taken. I know, it will sound like no big to deal to most people, especially Ning who willingly went to the hospital wanting to donate her blood. But
needle + Tan Wei Ern= NONO...
I was telling the lady injecting me, I SO DAMN REGRET APPLYING FOR THIS JOB!!! Rawrrrr.....
why must I go through this medical chekup?? ARGH!!!
She replied me, "Then you should work for this firm untill you're old, since you have gone through with the pain" =.='''
Besides blood test, I needed to go through urine test, eyesight, audio test, and x ray of my chest. Lol. Final outcome, the doctor said everything is fine, except that I am underweight.
I have found myself a decent place to stay, and now can start dreaming of all those wonderful skincares and makeup products I've been longing to buy. Haha...
Anyway, people, I have lots to update, but without pictures, I don't feel like typing much.
So, stay tune...
needle + Tan Wei Ern= NONO...
I was telling the lady injecting me, I SO DAMN REGRET APPLYING FOR THIS JOB!!! Rawrrrr.....
why must I go through this medical chekup?? ARGH!!!
She replied me, "Then you should work for this firm untill you're old, since you have gone through with the pain" =.='''
Besides blood test, I needed to go through urine test, eyesight, audio test, and x ray of my chest. Lol. Final outcome, the doctor said everything is fine, except that I am underweight.
I have found myself a decent place to stay, and now can start dreaming of all those wonderful skincares and makeup products I've been longing to buy. Haha...
Anyway, people, I have lots to update, but without pictures, I don't feel like typing much.
So, stay tune...
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