First day going back to class!!!
Tired...
Stress again!!!!!!!!!!
Scared........
Feeling drift off again.....
Each time I think of the phrase "Erny buck up!" OOOhhhh...... sends shiver down my spine.
Why do we need so much of studying? How does it help us in life? How will academic achievement proves of someone's capabilities? Does it really signify the level of critical thinking one can accomplish?
Bullshit!
Malaysia is such an exam oriented country. So what with all the achievement in exam? How does it contribute to Malaysia's development? As if someone of better knowledge won't act uncivilised?
What with studying professional accountant? It's like a subject of moral in the context of accounting. As if human will not commit fraud when they learn PA?? As if differentiating between what is ethical and unethical act can deter human from having the eagerness to earn some 'extra income'??
Tell me! Seriously, it all boils down to individual nature. How one is brought up. How was the family upbringing and so on. You can't just teach an adult to write out what is right and what is wrong, and expect them to do the same is reality. What a childish thinking.....
In reality everything is different from what we learn in our studies.
So, why the heck is Malaysia's culture so obsessed with studying??????????????
Monday, October 6, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Not that wrong after all...
It's great to know....at a point when I'm so down, thinking, I really have committed a sin, thinking, I really have done a big mistake.....friends are there, to tell me, it's not my fault after all. It's funny how , when I tell out my doings that I thought was wrong, ended up to be a blissful act instead.
What may perceive as wrong to one party, may be a totally angelic gesture to another. So, it ain't that much of a problem after all. Anyway, it doesn't mean anything to me anymore. Yes, Ning was right. I agree. Haiz.....some people just simply doesn't deserve friends around sacrificing for them. It just isn't fair.
What may perceive as wrong to one party, may be a totally angelic gesture to another. So, it ain't that much of a problem after all. Anyway, it doesn't mean anything to me anymore. Yes, Ning was right. I agree. Haiz.....some people just simply doesn't deserve friends around sacrificing for them. It just isn't fair.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Human
I have finally found out, human comes in many different thinking, and when I say different, I mean, really, B-I-G different.
I have met one long ago, and it took me 4 years to slowly discover what monster lies beneath the innocent face.
I have come to the conclusin, humans are greedy, they want more, just more of anything, it doesn't matter, wanna be ahead of others, or just grab on the things that others want, or have. The harder to get, the more thrilling it is.
Humans are selfish too. They want to keep what they have, and to grab at what others have or want. They just want to play safe, and yet, calling themselves mulia instead.
Am I like that too? Since I'm a human too?
I hope to change. I have seen a real life example of how ugly it could look when you behave selfishly, and what greediness can do to someone.
I have met one long ago, and it took me 4 years to slowly discover what monster lies beneath the innocent face.
I have come to the conclusin, humans are greedy, they want more, just more of anything, it doesn't matter, wanna be ahead of others, or just grab on the things that others want, or have. The harder to get, the more thrilling it is.
Humans are selfish too. They want to keep what they have, and to grab at what others have or want. They just want to play safe, and yet, calling themselves mulia instead.
Am I like that too? Since I'm a human too?
I hope to change. I have seen a real life example of how ugly it could look when you behave selfishly, and what greediness can do to someone.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Hahahaha
Today my friends and I had the most embarrassing day of our life.
Our P3 tutorial is scheduled to be on Friday 2 pm. But due to our pack time table, we thought of giving it a try to change to some other people's group.
So, it was 8am in the morning, we were rushing for time, a look at my watch, my heart skipped a beat! We were 5 mintues late. I don't favour being late. Especially, when I am going to replace my class.
So, we stumbled, and hurriedly find our way into the class.
All eyes were glued on us.
People whispered among themsleves.
I know, we look like aliens.
Yea right, we have 1 eye, 2 nose, 1 ear and 2 mouths.
So, upon having placed my things on my table, I went straight to inform the tutor of our presence. And guess what!
She stared at me.
Scorned at me.
Then said, "no!"
I tried negotiating.
I said, "Once only, please"
She said, "Alright"
So, I thought, nightmare is over....
But, the worst has yet to come.
When she came over to hand me the attendant list so that I can tick my name, she doubled confirm.
She said" 2 of you only?"
I said, "Nope"....:all of us here"..........with my hand pointing to 5 of us.....and of course, I didn't tell her, one more yet to come.
Oh goodness! Her expression changed. She glared at us all. And said, "You all better leave, I don't allow you all to come"
HUH???? Die lo...We quickly took our things, ran out from the classroom. I didn't dare look back to see.....but I do wonder.......what all those "humans" think of us "aliens" being shooed out....hhmmmm....
It was embarrassing, I know.
But then, we decided to attend an extra P2 class. Rajin terlebih, konon.
And, so, we started another period of making ourselves look like aliens again.
So, when the tutor who happens to be our lecturer came in, he started to teach.
We, of course, listen attentively.
And then, he took out the previous resit paper, and told us to have a look.
When he was about to pass it to my gang, he said " Oh, I'll give to my class students first, but it doesn't mean, you all are not my students, I treat you all equally."
And, I, as usual, as cheeky as ever, I snapped back to my friend, "DOUBLE STANDARD"
He heard. He looked at me. And he was shocked. Haha....
Well, I was shock too. That wasn't meant for him to hear.
Thank goodness, it should have been not that bad a day for me. Cause all he said was, "If I do double standard, you would have been black listed now, and I won't allow you to attend my class"then, he just smiled it off.
My friends thought it was a joke. Laughed at me.
Laugh lo.....laugh lo.....hmph!
Haiz...I am often the life wire, the joker, the one that get penilised, the pathetic one among my friends.
But, at least, I think, it's better than being the insignificant one among friends.
Our P3 tutorial is scheduled to be on Friday 2 pm. But due to our pack time table, we thought of giving it a try to change to some other people's group.
So, it was 8am in the morning, we were rushing for time, a look at my watch, my heart skipped a beat! We were 5 mintues late. I don't favour being late. Especially, when I am going to replace my class.
So, we stumbled, and hurriedly find our way into the class.
All eyes were glued on us.
People whispered among themsleves.
I know, we look like aliens.
Yea right, we have 1 eye, 2 nose, 1 ear and 2 mouths.
So, upon having placed my things on my table, I went straight to inform the tutor of our presence. And guess what!
She stared at me.
Scorned at me.
Then said, "no!"
I tried negotiating.
I said, "Once only, please"
She said, "Alright"
So, I thought, nightmare is over....
But, the worst has yet to come.
When she came over to hand me the attendant list so that I can tick my name, she doubled confirm.
She said" 2 of you only?"
I said, "Nope"....:all of us here"..........with my hand pointing to 5 of us.....and of course, I didn't tell her, one more yet to come.
Oh goodness! Her expression changed. She glared at us all. And said, "You all better leave, I don't allow you all to come"
HUH???? Die lo...We quickly took our things, ran out from the classroom. I didn't dare look back to see.....but I do wonder.......what all those "humans" think of us "aliens" being shooed out....hhmmmm....
It was embarrassing, I know.
But then, we decided to attend an extra P2 class. Rajin terlebih, konon.
And, so, we started another period of making ourselves look like aliens again.
So, when the tutor who happens to be our lecturer came in, he started to teach.
We, of course, listen attentively.
And then, he took out the previous resit paper, and told us to have a look.
When he was about to pass it to my gang, he said " Oh, I'll give to my class students first, but it doesn't mean, you all are not my students, I treat you all equally."
And, I, as usual, as cheeky as ever, I snapped back to my friend, "DOUBLE STANDARD"
He heard. He looked at me. And he was shocked. Haha....
Well, I was shock too. That wasn't meant for him to hear.
Thank goodness, it should have been not that bad a day for me. Cause all he said was, "If I do double standard, you would have been black listed now, and I won't allow you to attend my class"then, he just smiled it off.
My friends thought it was a joke. Laughed at me.
Laugh lo.....laugh lo.....hmph!
Haiz...I am often the life wire, the joker, the one that get penilised, the pathetic one among my friends.
But, at least, I think, it's better than being the insignificant one among friends.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Sickening asshole
Some people are such a hipocrit.
One minute they say like that, the next minute they do another.
Let me tell all of you about my experience with the world's greatest hipocrit.
Ya, now, is the most critical sem we are all having. With 3 professional papers up, everybody is slaving like mad. Hope is the only thing left we can cling on to.
And, out of great kindness I approached XX whether she wants to go tutition with me or not. I told her the importance of it, as our lecturers are not competent enough. I wanted so much for her to share with me something good (going tuition will help build up your confidence, and of course, let you better understand the subject), and you know what response I get????
" Go for what? Waste money, waste time".Hello! If you think you are smart, then just politely reject me, don't have to criticise my good offer,k? I wasn't even asking you to take drugs or smoke! Just say, no thank you lah!!!
Then....I slowly found out that she has been instigating my friend as well. Becasue when I ask my another friend whether wanna go, my friend replied me this, "I agree with what XX said, so I don't want to go." Fuck off XX! You told me you don't want to intervene with my group's business, then why are you brainwashing my friend????!If you think you are fucking smart enough, then don't go, but don't encourage people not to go as well.
Are you doing so just to console yourself????
Or are you kiasu, and you hope the whole world don't go, just like you?
Okay, the story takes a turn here...
Now, XX said wanna go for tuition. After she found out, people are all going. (which is of course against her will).
I can never forgive XX for being so brutal to me.Saat say one thing, saat do another. Selfish pig.
You don't tell people stuff like waste money waste time, when at the end, you, yourself are asking when is the due date for registration. What sense is this?
When Oi Siew approached me whether I want to go for another tuition, I was very reluctant.I so hope that she won't go as well. But I didn't dicourage her. Instead at last, I decided to join as well, and this is what I said to Suli. " I am going because, I am kiasu. " Yes, it's damn hard for people to admit something not good about themselves. But I said it there and then, I am kiasu, so I am going!
Why can't hipocrits just face up to the fact of telling people their true feeling. Eg: "I am kiasu, and I don't want to go, so I hope you bitches don't go as well". Rather than, "Oh, it's a waste of money, and time. Don't know how to ownself study ah?" Shit you hipocrits. Go to hell lah.
Know how to say say say, then at last, why want to follow the crowds?
Is it you're trying to learn from what people always say, IF YOU CAN'T BEAT THEM, JOIN THEM??
YOu know what, you're just a hipocrit.
Oh ya, to everybody out there, this blog of mine is not meant to offend anybody. I am just at the moment piss off, and need a place to vent my anger, with the hope I can be "mentally stable" again.
One minute they say like that, the next minute they do another.
Let me tell all of you about my experience with the world's greatest hipocrit.
Ya, now, is the most critical sem we are all having. With 3 professional papers up, everybody is slaving like mad. Hope is the only thing left we can cling on to.
And, out of great kindness I approached XX whether she wants to go tutition with me or not. I told her the importance of it, as our lecturers are not competent enough. I wanted so much for her to share with me something good (going tuition will help build up your confidence, and of course, let you better understand the subject), and you know what response I get????
" Go for what? Waste money, waste time".Hello! If you think you are smart, then just politely reject me, don't have to criticise my good offer,k? I wasn't even asking you to take drugs or smoke! Just say, no thank you lah!!!
Then....I slowly found out that she has been instigating my friend as well. Becasue when I ask my another friend whether wanna go, my friend replied me this, "I agree with what XX said, so I don't want to go." Fuck off XX! You told me you don't want to intervene with my group's business, then why are you brainwashing my friend????!If you think you are fucking smart enough, then don't go, but don't encourage people not to go as well.
Are you doing so just to console yourself????
Or are you kiasu, and you hope the whole world don't go, just like you?
Okay, the story takes a turn here...
Now, XX said wanna go for tuition. After she found out, people are all going. (which is of course against her will).
I can never forgive XX for being so brutal to me.Saat say one thing, saat do another. Selfish pig.
You don't tell people stuff like waste money waste time, when at the end, you, yourself are asking when is the due date for registration. What sense is this?
When Oi Siew approached me whether I want to go for another tuition, I was very reluctant.I so hope that she won't go as well. But I didn't dicourage her. Instead at last, I decided to join as well, and this is what I said to Suli. " I am going because, I am kiasu. " Yes, it's damn hard for people to admit something not good about themselves. But I said it there and then, I am kiasu, so I am going!
Why can't hipocrits just face up to the fact of telling people their true feeling. Eg: "I am kiasu, and I don't want to go, so I hope you bitches don't go as well". Rather than, "Oh, it's a waste of money, and time. Don't know how to ownself study ah?" Shit you hipocrits. Go to hell lah.
Know how to say say say, then at last, why want to follow the crowds?
Is it you're trying to learn from what people always say, IF YOU CAN'T BEAT THEM, JOIN THEM??
YOu know what, you're just a hipocrit.
Oh ya, to everybody out there, this blog of mine is not meant to offend anybody. I am just at the moment piss off, and need a place to vent my anger, with the hope I can be "mentally stable" again.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
My 21st birthday.
This is me, going to cut my cake!
My friends who made me a wonderful celebration.
My CK sunglasses that my dad bought for me
And, best of all! My cake!Saturday, May 31, 2008
I am a big girl!
I am proud to say, I can now officially step into the casino, and also any clubs I like now.
I am 21 now. Hah! I wonder whether it's something to be happy about or not.
Being an adult, well of cause you get the freedom you want {+ certain limitations stil :-( }
I was given by my mum a really nice gold necklace! (love it!). And my dearest aunty-a gold key. (I know it sounds weird, cause my parents are supposed to be the ones giving me my key to freedom)
My darling daddy, half heartedly bought me a pair of CK sunglasses. I was so overjoyed. And I know, his heart must have hurt damn lots. haha.....it's just so hard for him to part with his money, he told me it's just this once only. No anymore luxurious birthday present when I'm older. :-(
But I guess, that should be enough. My wonderful friends made my day really memorable, they shared out to buy me a pair of white gold earrings, one side is a key, and the other is a lock! How smart of them, cause I sure do need both!
Suli didn't buy me any birthday gift, cause she doesn't celebrate birthday. But it's really kind of her to buy me a white gold ring, which I have wanted sooooooo badly. People around me are trying really hard to me my day great, and I feel so blessed to have known them (some of them, not all, some stil sucks)
Talking about "sucky" people....yes! yes! There really are. Some people they just give you a present out of obligation. Just because you give them, so they give you in return. No true meaning to it. Not sincere at all. Feel like throwing the gift at the person's head back. But...nono...I am not that barbaric yet. Must keep my cool.
But, really, I just want to let whoever is concerned, to know that, I give people gift because I appreciate them. So if I give you gifts, mean I do it sincerely. So if you don't feel like giving me, don't even bother to buy. Cause you will only embarrass yourself when I find out that you are giving the present out of obligation, just because I gave you one, you hurriedly went to get one back for me. I am not stupid. I can know when was the gift bought.And I know, it was bought after my birthday.
I am not poor. I have my own money. I don't need sympathetic gift.I can buy whatever I want on my own. So, if you don't feel like giving, just don't give. I won't feel offended.
I just want to thanks sincere, caring people around me for trying to brighten up my day. Love all of you so much!
I will upload my birthday pictures soon! Keep track here!
I am 21 now. Hah! I wonder whether it's something to be happy about or not.
Being an adult, well of cause you get the freedom you want {+ certain limitations stil :-( }
I was given by my mum a really nice gold necklace! (love it!). And my dearest aunty-a gold key. (I know it sounds weird, cause my parents are supposed to be the ones giving me my key to freedom)
My darling daddy, half heartedly bought me a pair of CK sunglasses. I was so overjoyed. And I know, his heart must have hurt damn lots. haha.....it's just so hard for him to part with his money, he told me it's just this once only. No anymore luxurious birthday present when I'm older. :-(
But I guess, that should be enough. My wonderful friends made my day really memorable, they shared out to buy me a pair of white gold earrings, one side is a key, and the other is a lock! How smart of them, cause I sure do need both!
Suli didn't buy me any birthday gift, cause she doesn't celebrate birthday. But it's really kind of her to buy me a white gold ring, which I have wanted sooooooo badly. People around me are trying really hard to me my day great, and I feel so blessed to have known them (some of them, not all, some stil sucks)
Talking about "sucky" people....yes! yes! There really are. Some people they just give you a present out of obligation. Just because you give them, so they give you in return. No true meaning to it. Not sincere at all. Feel like throwing the gift at the person's head back. But...nono...I am not that barbaric yet. Must keep my cool.
But, really, I just want to let whoever is concerned, to know that, I give people gift because I appreciate them. So if I give you gifts, mean I do it sincerely. So if you don't feel like giving me, don't even bother to buy. Cause you will only embarrass yourself when I find out that you are giving the present out of obligation, just because I gave you one, you hurriedly went to get one back for me. I am not stupid. I can know when was the gift bought.And I know, it was bought after my birthday.
I am not poor. I have my own money. I don't need sympathetic gift.I can buy whatever I want on my own. So, if you don't feel like giving, just don't give. I won't feel offended.
I just want to thanks sincere, caring people around me for trying to brighten up my day. Love all of you so much!
I will upload my birthday pictures soon! Keep track here!
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